Negativity has effected me a lot in recent years, I feel I have become more susceptible to it which means I focus on it a lot, now I don’t remember this being such a big deal to me when I was younger so where has this come from? This has been on my mind a lot, talking to my spiritual life coach a few weeks ago, she pointed out that the reason why some traits effect you so much is because actually they are within you. I thought about this, I thought am I negative and on reflection, I realised I have been telling myself many many negative stories in recent years and if I think about where they come from, it is all based on fears. I have become so scared of things when actually I have absolutely nothing to fear. In my younger years, I had this deep unsaid belief, it kept me positive and happy but things happen in your life that lead you to question and I think a massive part of the fears I have comes from loosing faith. I can even pinpoint the time when I first realised I lost my faith, it came from things not working out like I planned, this is part of the reason why I fear making plans (another fear), the thing is, when you loose faith/belief, getting it back is a real journey, you have to keep going inwards but the thing about when I lost it, what I realised is, the faith wasn’t actually based on anything in the first place. In those days, I used to just accept everything that was told to me and I just believed it, so when it went and had to bring it back, I didn’t actually know where to go to find it again, so in some ways, I had to start from scratch. Building foundations and re-educating myself about the basics but instead of turning to religion, like I had before, a lot of those answers actually came from spirituality and the very simple concepts that we are all souls, we are all light, we are all energy, our true nature is peace, love and joy and these are always there within us, we can stay connected to ourselves through meditation, the universe will guide us if we just trust it so on and so forth. Now I am still working on finding myself but I feel more confident that this time its a lot more real, it makes more sense and feels more authentic.
Can you relate to any of this? What negative stories are you telling yourself?