On Saturday I was in a funny mood, too long at home made me irritable and a little sad, anyway, although I managed to recover and pick myself up, the other half who was feeling pretty much the same still seemed to have this irritability in him come the evening, I told him I was keeping my distance because I know how influential powerful souls are…his mood continued into bedtime. While I read and he popped off to put the alarm on, I remembered a valid exercise I had learnt whilst dealing with a challenging relationship…sending light.
My relationship with this particular person had really been deteriorating and I didn’t realise how sad I felt about it till I expressed it to a friend. Her response was ‘Right, that’s it, we’re sending him light’. I am open to anything that will make things better, she explained that sending light is something that if done continuously will improve relationships, I was very ready to give it a go. As she began the guided session, I could feel a tightness in my chest, I told her this and she explained that the love between me and this person had gone but doing this exercise again and again this tight feeling would eventually go, that day when I got home, the improvement was immediate, this was evidence enough that sending light works.
How to send Light
Back to Saturday, while he was out of the room, I closed my eyes and imagined god, I asked god to send me light to fill my body with light and then just for a second, I imagined him infront of me, then I just saw his soul and from god and through my body, I sent him light, I filled his body with light. I spoke of him being a soul who felt unsettled, who felt irritated, who needed light, I then opened my eyes. Exercise done and the result, he returned back in the room and seemed to be himself again, once again evidence that this actually works. So I honestly believe the answer to help improve a challenging relationships is to send them light, it might be hard to begin with, it might feel uncomfortable but the benefits will be worth it, why not give it a go…
I am glad each day isn’t the same as the last and I am glad when a new day comes we don’t have to relive the upsets and confusions of past days, a new day is a fresh start, some are going to start amazingly and we are going to feel motivated and optimistic and strong and some days are going to start rubbish and we won’t be able to pick ourselves up but we can always feel relieved to know once we rest our head down to sleep, a new day will start all over again – this brings me a lot of happiness. One day I am hoping every day will be a good day but until that day, I’ll just be glad that each day isn’t the same
I’m not working at the moment which means I have a lot of time on my hands. Recently, I have spent a little of that time watching movies, as I have been doing a lot of cooking, it isn’t surprising that the films I have been most attracted too are those about food. After watching my 3rd food based movie today, I made a observation, all these movies seem to follow the same theme: Unhappy man is forced to re-evaluate his life which involves finding what really matters including what his real priorities in life are, on the journey he peels away what isn’t really important by simplifying things and finds happiness once again. In case your wondering, I highly recommend all these movies and I’ll let you know the names at the end of this post but I guess what this has really got me thinking about is, is there a reason all the movies I am watching have the similar themes, is someone trying to tell me something, it sure feels like it, there is a lot I want to achieve career wise but I also don’t want to get so caught up in the idea of making money and being successful that I forget the basics. It’s easy to get carried away and then loose sight of who you really are and what’s really important, I have been there before and the feeling of being lost isn’t a nice one, so I guess what I’m trying to say is, I am very grateful to be able to have the time and space to realise this and I guess if I was working, there would be no time to reflect.
There is one more thing, these films have led me to ask the question: what do I really love, what makes me happy, what is my purpose (an ongoing question), what can I do that will make me feel complete? I’ll let you know when I find the answers…but are these questions ones you need to be asking yourself?
If you want to experience the beauty of these 3 movies, here are the titles and a short description (click to see the trailers). If you watch any of them, let me know your thoughts, I would love to hear them!
Chef: A head chef quits his restaurant job and buys a food truck in an effort to reclaim his creative promise.
Waffle Street: A rags-to-riches tale of a jaded financier who, after losing his Wall Street job, finds redemption and an unlikely friendship whilst working in a waffle restaurant.
Today’s Special: A young Manhattan chef rediscovers his passion for life through making Indian food when he is forced to take over the family business.
I used to feel guilty that I’m not being consistent with the blogging but I’ve stopped, I’m just glad I didn’t delete Blue Brown Soul because now I feel excited to revisit it, it’s a little like catching up with an old friend, you just continue where you left off, I have to say, it’s a very comforting feeling which will result in your hearing from me a little more. Let’s call me that friend you haven’t spoken to for a few years, I can’t promise how long this visit will be for but I can promise some insightful posts, so watch this space.
For the last month, I have been feeling disjointed, it’s very hard to explain but it seems there is a separation between me and myself and as a result things have been really getting to me and I have been feeling stressed, overwhelmed and angry and unfortunately it’s been playing on my health! However, I realised although the ego ‘you’ doesn’t know what you need, the universe does, strangely enough over the past 2 weeks I have been having repetitive conversations about meditation, those of you who don’t understand would say it is a coincidence, however I believe it is a sign!
We get so consumed with life, social media, and our phones that we forget to focus on what’s important; ourselves. The result of my ignorance about this hit me on Sunday when I chatted to a girl at a party. She teaches meditation and while I spilled out about my anxieties and fears, she spoke about her classes, about being in the moment and reconnecting and centering, as she explained how meditation had changed her life, helped her find what she really wanted to do (She is now a nutritionist, previously in finance) and how happy she is to go to work every Monday, I realised how far from that I was and suddenly, I knew exactly what I had to do in order to find my peace again, I had to reconnect with my true self. When I say true self some of you won’t know what I am talking about but I honestly believe we are just a shell and who we really are lies deep inside.
I had been reflecting on this after our chat, it’s funny, when you are whole or rather when you feel whole, things seem easier to handle and this wholeness comes and goes but I wish it would come and stay and the only way I can make that happen is by helping the process. I wish everyone could understand where I am coming from but I guess this is my thing and no one else’s.
Anyway, I will try my best to let you know how it all goes, I am already feeling challenges but I know this is going to help in the long run and that’s what I need to focus on, the long term benefits. Wish me luck!
The other day while scrolling through my Facebook feed I came across an article, a girl had decided to let her boyfriend dress her for a week, why I hear you asking, well the article started with the following…
‘ My boyfriend, Chris doesn’t see me the way I see myself. So I wanted to see how someone who doesn’t have my insecurities would dress me for a week.’
This got me thinking, wouldn’t it be great to know how others see you, perhaps it would help you to work on your insecurities. Doing this kind of experiment would really help you build your confidence and maybe even help you to see yourself in a new light, therefore inspired by this very brave girl, I have decided to give Mr R the same task. I shall keep you all updated with the results, although you’ll have to wait a while, still got a few months before we share a home together.
For now, I have a task for you all;
1. Read the article – My Boyfriend dressed me for a week…
2. Ask 5 people you know well to tell you what they think about you and what they like about you and why, it can be physical traits or personality traits.
3. Write down all comments
4. Share them here. I promise to do the same
Looking forward to see what you all come up with!
It’s got to a point in life where I won’t meet people unless they can offer me something, I’m a learner, my mind, body and soul strives from learning and although that wasn’t always clear to me, I know this now.
Last week, I had dinner with a friend, not someone I see often but someone who always seems to leave me with an after thought. This time it was the need to be true to yourself, she spoke about a friend, who she no longer really talks to. Not her exact words but what she said was something on the lines of this and I loved how she made it sound so simple
‘When I returned from my holiday, I realised I changed, certain things weren’t important to me anymore and this friendship was one of those things, I had to be true to myself’
I guess the point is, things we go through change us and certain people we were once close to, we just can’t relate to anymore but that’s ok, if anything it’s a good thing because this means your getting closer to your raw core, spiritually so many things don’t matter. Not money nor the attachments you’ve built with people, all that matters is you are true to yourself.