If you follow this blog, you know the writing isn’t constant, it often returns when something doesn’t feel quite right. Just now is one of those times!
I’ve been feeling more emotional and delicate (always a sign) than normal and I have known there is something wrong but literally didn’t have a chance to put my finger on it…till today.
Life has become so busy that its hard to find the time to stop and think and reflect and somehow I have become very disconnected, lack of ‘me time’ really takes its toll but we just don’t realise it.
Many of us go from day to day without even a second to reflect on how we are feeling and why, reflection is a necessity!
Sometimes that reaction that you can’t explain is the result of more than just ‘a bad day’, something far deeper than you realise, the tears, raised voice, irritation is actually a cry for help, your soul saying ‘stop and pay some attention to me’.
Today I paid attention, summers are always intense and with things getting done at home and having to run between 2 cities, the death of a grandparent and not really having a proper break as well as constantly doing something and barely having a second to sit down let alone time to think, it all became too much, I was living the life of a robot and thats not good for anyone, especially someone like me who knows how important it is to have time to myself, what I also hadn’t realise is how much I had struggled to adjust to my new life, I plod along every day just doing what I have to do, a bit like a Robot – the daily chores, the monotonous routine and having to take care of a house, you realise how easy you had it before and you often wish for those days but the reality is, you have to live the life you choose and this was my choice, the fact I am aware of what I am feeling is a massive achievement, as we all know, awareness is the beginning!
I now know where my problem lies and if I want to move away from the Robot Life and find my happiness again, its for me to find solutions, communication is key when your feeling this kind of distance and it was talking with the other half and a friend who made me discuss how I can move forward from these uneasy feelings…So a few recommendations for myself (and others if they can relate to me)
- Meditate more – Get closer to my soul – Reconnect!
- Find more me time – Remember the things that make me happy and do them.
- Don’t be so hard on myself – I don’t have to do everything just now, there is no rush – this is probably one of my biggest challenges.
- Breathe – And be grateful for my breath, I am so lucky to be alive. I must keep remembering this.
- Find domestic help – Get some help so I can find more time to do the things I want to do.
- Reflect often – This will avoid me getting to this point again or worse still getting to a worse point.
One last note to myself…everything is always going to be ok so don’t worry or stress about anything!